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Author:  larry larry
E-mail:  larrymoore@cebridge.net
Date:  10/8/2011 1:07:03 PM
Subject:  Re: My daughter
Message:  Hi Karen, so great to hear from you. I've been there and done that, most of my life. Changed meds over and over. I remember, one year at the gathering, everyone was telling me how much weight I'd lost. It was because I was going through one of the most depressing times of my life and didn't know why.

When I went to my psychiatrist he asked me if I had lost all the weight because it's was something I wanted to do. All I could say was "no".

He was very concerned so he put me back on Fluoxetin 2 forty mg. tablets a day. Fluoxetin is a generic of Prozac . He said that that was about as high as he wanted to go. Also I was suffering from anxiety and he put me on the lowest dose of Clonazapam
( sp? ) .5mg three times a day, four if necessary. It has helped quite a bit. Before he did the med change I couldn't even hold the phone to my ear without shaking like crazy.

I've had this crap all my life and it's a very real thing. There is no such thing as " Just snap out of it kid.". It's also extremely hard on the family because you just wish there was something that you could do, but don't know what.

I didn't want anyone to touch me or talk to me. Everyone at the school I worked at said that they had never seen me like that and were worried sick. The one depressed also feels horrible because they know what their family is going through but they also can't seem to do anything about it.

The answer that I would have for you is....I don't know one. That doesn't mean that an answer is not out there. Don't give up ( and that's easy for me to say ).

I happen to believe that there is still God to get you through it and can cure it. I don't know the mind of God. I seem to have questioned His actions, most of my life. Like my pastor says, " When someone is deeply hurting, the last thing they want is someone spewing scriptures at them."

For now the only solution I know of, until something better comes along, is a bandage.... a bandage of love. The kind of love is also hard to discern.... Words, physical contact, like a hug, just being there in the same room so she won't feel alone. . Maybe loving her enough to let her be alone.

I say all this to say again.... I don't know the answer.
It's almost like when your child breaks up with her first puppy love and nothing you can do or say seems to help and your heart is as broken as hers.

When you're with your daughter, ask God to be there too.

Hey, if she would want to email me, just for some support from someone who has and at times is still there, go for it. Suzette
( after 40yrs on Nov. 23rd) would be proud to know that there is another woman that sees some good in me.

Just tell her that I don't move to fast on this key board and I might be slow getting back.

Maybe.....buy her a new chocolate Playpuss. I know it would help me.


 My daughter by Karen (Australia)  at 10/8/2011 5:48:35 AM
 Re: My daughter by Karen (Australia) at 10/8/2011 5:51:35 AM
 Re: My daughter by Ginny G.  at 10/8/2011 11:15:56 AM
 Re: My daughter by larry larry  at 10/8/2011 1:07:03 PM
 Re: My daughter by Lib at 10/8/2011 2:14:22 PM
 Re: My daughter by karen (Australia) at 10/10/2011 12:54:35 AM
 Re: My daughter by BarbraG at 10/10/2011 8:20:31 PM
 Re: My daughter by andrew p at 10/12/2011 9:29:14 AM