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Author:  Judy C.
E-mail:  Bellavim714@comecast.net
Date:  9/25/2005 8:28:55 PM
Subject:  Please read this, it is a message from Oakley''s M
Message:  Journal

Sunday, September 25, 2005 9:52 AM CDT

Hello Everyone,
Oakley was in too much pain to go see his doctor on Friday so we finally got a call from Dr. Collier on Friday afternoon at about 6:30. He called to let us know that the cancer is still growing and Oakley has several new tumors. That is why he has been in so much pain lately. Oakley is being very brave and I think he knew what the answer was going to be because when I told him he did not seem shocked. I told him that no one is giving up Hope, but we are changing our focus to get him back up on his feet with less pain. We are looking into radiation and maybe even oral chemo, which may help with the inflamation. He told me this morning when I gave him his pain medicine that he could deal with the cancer, but he can't deal with the pain all over his body. A couple of weeks ago I told him that I am so sorry this happened to him and he told me not to be sorry because this has made him a better person. Just this week he told me not to have simpathy for him because it makes him feel weak. I don't know where he gets his strength from. It has to come from above, because we as his parents don't have the strength and courage he has shown.

For just about a year now, I have shared this journey with you. I'm not sure why. At first it started out as an easy way to let friends and family know what was happening and how Oakley was instead of having to call everybody and answer e-mails all the time. Don't get me wrong, I still love to get the personal e-mails and phone calls but this was just a quick way to get the word out. This web site quickly became more than that. It has become a way for me to get things off my chest when I needed to and to be able to share some of my deepest thoughts and feelings not even stopping to think who might be reading this. The messages we have gotten in return have helped in ways you will never know. I feel so many times that God has used this web site to speak to us through you.

Our hearts are broken in so many pieces that they will never be the same again. I can't even begin to explain to you what it is like to see your child lay in relentless pain and suffering. I can identify with how Mary felt when she had to watch her innocent son die. I know this, that because He did die that day many years ago, I know that my son will never die. We may be seperated for a short while as we journey in different countries, but one day we will all be together again where there is no pain or suffering and everything will be new again. When Oakley was born 18 years ago he almost died. I prayed and begged God then to let him live. I promised God that I would make sure Oakley grew up to know Him and love Him. I am so thankful that God has given me these years with Oakley. I am not giving up Hope because I know that God can change things in an instant. He is the same yesterday, today and forever. I told God when I found out that Oakley had cancer that I would continue to praise His name no matter what the outcome so......Praise be to God who is the great I AM, the author and finisher of our faith.

I am asking that everyone who reads this, please get the word out that Oakley needs your prayer to relieve this pain he is in. Please e-mail or phone every God fearing, believing person you know. When God's people pray to Him, I know He answers. I have seen God move in so many ways in the last 3 years. I hope you all have a blessed and safe day.
Much love,

Oakley means so much to me and has given me so much strength with my own illness, so will you take just a minuite and say a prayer for him..

Thank You,
Loving you all,
Judy C

 Please read this, it is a message from Oakley''s M by Judy C.  at 9/25/2005 8:28:55 PM
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